From the Washington Post
An American Kingdom
A new and rapidly growing Christian movement is openly political, wants a nation under God’s authority, and is central to Donald Trump’s GOP
Veteran of four wars, four enlistments, four branches: Air Force, Army, Army Reserve, Army National Guard. I am both an AF (Air Force) veteran and as Veteran AF (As Fuck)
From the Washington Post
When I visit concentration camps, along with learning about the horror, I pay attention to how the survivors, both victims and those who live nearby, deal with the evil happened in their midst.
At Flossenburg, one response was to build a memorial chapel just two years after the end of the war in 1947. The stone building of the chapel is attached to a former guard tower. The chapel honors the victims from 22 countries who were murdered in the camp. Its design stands against every form of Christian Nationalism--the arrogant and hateful belief that God picks specific nations to be His representative here on earth.
Christian Nationalism has been the justification for slaughter in the name of God since the Church melded with the government after the fall of the Roman Empire. I recently read Karl Jaspers "Socrates, Buddha, Confucius, Jesus." Jaspers makes clear that Jesus pointed to the Kingdom of God and had no program for any kind of kingdom here on earth. In the Gospels, there is nothing to support taking any kind of political power in the name of God. A vegan butcher is less of a contradiction than conquest in the name of Jesus.
The Beatitudes, or the Sermon on the Mount, one of the central documents of Christianity, says God is with the victims in this world. "Blessed are the meek, for they will inherit the earth." That is not the marching orders for "Christian" army to slaughter its neighbors.
But Christian Nationalism has fully infected the Evangelical Church in America. In 2016 nearly 80% of Evangelicals voted for the "America First" immigrant-hating candidate who expressed their beliefs. The percentage went up in 2020. Four years of lies and hate made the Christian Nationalist candidate more attractive. White supremacists like Steve Bannon and Sebastian Gorka just made fake Christians more excited.
So in the midst of all the sadness of the remains of the Flossenburg concentration camp, I was glad to see a flat rejection of Christian Nationalism and all of the simmering hate behind it.
No one can love the whole world. Abstract love is not love at all. The commandment of God to love our neighbor whether in the Hebrew Scriptures of the New Testament can only be brought into being by loving those with us and near us.
The Holocaust, among its many horrors is a record of people who ignored, betrayed and murdered their Jewish neighbor. From the Pyrenees to the Ural mountains, the Jew next door was beaten, robbed and dragged away in the night to be murdered.
Every form of Christian Nationalism is wrong and hateful. Flag waving America First Evangelicals make the Jesus they claim to worship into a symbol of hate.
My first full day in Paris, I walked to Jardin Luxembourg to visit The Red Wheelbarrow bookstore. I have visited the store several times since 2018 when Penelope bought the store and moved it to this lovely location near the Pantheon and the Sorbonne.
When I arrived at the store it was not open. A woman was waiting outside and said the store would open soon in English that was very American. Penelope arrived a few minutes later. While we waited outside the store, Nita Wiggins and I began talking about The Red Wheelbarrow and the beautiful day in Paris.
As we talked I learned that Nita is a professor. She teaches journalism in Paris at l’Ecole Supérieure de Journalisme de Paris. she moved to Paris in 2009 to teach journalism and has lived here ever since.
Before moving to Paris, she was a sports reporter for all of the major US networks. Her book:
This afternoon I checked in for a flight to Paris on IcelandAir. Checking in for boarding took a while because of COVID documents, but once I had a boarding pass, there was almost no line for security.
When I approached the screening area, I told the guy at the metal detector that I would need the alternative screening. I said,"I have metal here, here and here" pointing to my neck, left knee and left elbow. James, the TSA screener, said "Go ahead and try anyway." I did. The alarm sounded and I waited for the technician to check me. After I put my arms over my head in the plexiglass booth, James came over to do the pat down. The technician was a woman and could not do the hands-on check.
When James walked over I held my arms out straight to my sides. He said, "You don't need to do that, you're not an airplane."
'And you are a native New Yorker,' I thought.
Then he said, "You got metal all over the place, was it shrapnel from a war?"
"As a matter of fact, in 1973......"
"No way," he said. "You were in 'Nam? I was there during the Tet Offensive. '68. Radio man."
"I managed to get blinded by shrapnel in a missile explosion in America," I said. "Live fire test."
"That sucks," he said. "No Purple Heart, right?"
"Right?" I said. Then I told him about my fingers hanging off and getting re-attached. With professional curiosity and gloved hands, he checked the first fingers on my right hand.
He then told me about his communications site being surrounded, then the North Vietnamese went around his bunker and moved on. "I was sure I was dead," James said.
We fist bumped then waved as he went back to the check-in line.
I have talked to many TSA agents who were Iraq and Afghanistan veterans. I don't remember a lot of Vietnam War veterans. Certainly not recently. But it was fun to talk with him.
Next week I am flying to Germany to join my best friend Cliff on a thousand-mile tour of Nazi Concentration Camps. We have visited other concentration camps together in 2017, 2019 and 2020: Buchenwald, Dachau, and the first concentration camp opened in the state of Hesse in February1933.
We also visited Nuremberg in 2020, the site of the rallies that were central to Hitler's power.
In July we will visit Flossenburg, Auschwitz-Birkenau and Theresienstadt. We chose these because Cliff had never been Auschwitz, I had never been to Flossenberg and neither of us have been to Theresienstadt.
Auschwitz is the largest and worst of the camps. A million Jews died Auschwitz, but by the time the camp was in operation, three million Jews had already been murdered. They were shot by tens of thousands of German soldiers, German police, and by police and volunteers in conquered countries.
Flossenburg is where Dietrich Bonhoeffer was martyred by the Nazis just before the war ended. One of the worst Trump toadies wrote a biography of Bonhoeffer in 2011. Eric Metaxas could write about a martyr and then praise Trump.
Thereseienstadt in the Czech Republic was the "show camp" for the Nazis early in the war. It was a place they took the Red Cross to show them the camps were not as bad as the rumors. It was also the camp where Jews who were confessing Christians were sent. Churches in Germany stood aside and let their members who had any Jewish heritage be murdered.
Bruder Timotheus and Kanaan
Cliff was Sergeant Cliff Almes in the1970s in Cold War Germany where we were roommates. After leaving the U.S. military he became Bruder Timotheus at the Land of Kanaan in Darmstadt. Kanaan was founded in 1947 by two women who believed Germany must repent for the Holocaust.
Before 2017, I had never been to a Holocaust museum or memorial or a concentration camp. But when a racist President put the head breitbart.com in the White House, I knew I had to get connected to my genetic heritage. Steve Bannon gave white supremacists and neo-Nazis a place to promote hate on breitbart.com
In August 2017, Nazis were "fine people" according to the President and I needed to learn more about the hateful people who are his base of support.
Germany was a civilized, if impoverished, country in 1932. By 1945, the country was bombed, invaded and defeated. The Nazis killed millions of innocent people and left their own country a smoldering ruin. America was the leading democracy in the world in 2016, we are now slowly sinking into tyranny while Republicans cheer.
I am going to concentration camps to see just how bad it can get if a tyrant rips away American democracy.
If I were asked to name one thing that defines the life of my oldest daughter, I would say, "Lauren loves dogs!"
We got our family's first dog when Lauren was eight years old. The German Shepherd named Lucky was the whole family's dog, but Lauren really loved that dog. Except for when she lived in college dorms, Lauren has had dogs ever since. She currently has two rescue dogs named Guinness and Watson, but she wrote her first book about a dog named Amelia.
Lauren adopted Amelia last year and kept her alive and as healthy as possible until she passed away last month on May 20, National Rescue Dog Day at the age of approximately 12-14. The book is a story told by Amelia about finding her last and final family. If you would like to get the book for a child in your life (or yourself), order here.
Lauren volunteers for Lu's Labs, a Labrador Retriever Rescue organization. Lauren fostered thirty rescued labs over the past five years before deciding to keep Amelia.
Over the past year, Amelia posted daily on the Lu's Labs site as well as her and her brother's instagram page. These posts detailed her transition to Lauren's home, old lady ailments, the difficulties of training the humans and attempting to understand their behavior, and about finding the simple joys and things to be grateful for in each day. These posts had hundreds of followers.
In her passing, Amelia received over a thousand messages from people telling her how her posts inspired them, taught them about love and gratitude, helped them through difficult times in their lives, the uncertainty of COVID, and how reading her daily posts became part of their morning coffee routine or part of family dinner each night. These messages also had another common and incredible theme, so many people spoke of the incredible love they had for dog they'd never met.
Lauren is currently posting on Facebook at Team Wag Forever.
On Instagram: Amelia Writes Books and Guiness Watson and Friends.
Lauren shared with me many of the hundreds of comments she received. I was really moved by the comment from her soccer coach at Juniata College, Scott McKenzie. I only went on one college visit with Lauren and that was the college she picked. I remember little of the visit except the first moment of meeting coach McKenzie.
Lauren and I walked into McKenzie's office. He was sitting at the desk looking at some papers, looked at Lauren then bolted straight up out of his chair, hands raised like he was in Church and said, "Praise the Lord. A five-foot ten goalkeeper wants to play for my team."
Lauren played every season, but missed a lot of her senior season after an open fracture of her finger in a pre-season game.
Here is Coach McKenzie's response to Amelia's passing. Lauren's nickname on the team was "Goose."
A good friend of mine lost one of her dogs this morning. Not just any friend and not just any dog! Goose (my friend) competed for me while a student-athlete at Juniata College. Goose was a terrific goalkeeper for our women’s soccer team. She’s an even better human being who has dedicated her professional life to caring for others. It makes sense, then, that this tendency towards care would carry over to her personal life in the dedication she shows to her family and her pets. Goose volunteers for an organization called Lu’s Labs, which connects available dogs with their forever families.
In Amelia’s case, the cards were stacked against this wonderful chocolate lab. Elderly dogs and dogs with compromised health are tough to place. In steps Goose (about a year ago) and becomes Amelia’s foster and then forever Mom. Goose and her husband welcomed Amelia into their family of two other labs and they became a family of five.
Goose and Amelia wrote a children’s book together about finding a home and being loved. I can’t wait to get my “pawtographed” copy.
Goose gave Amelia a voice and many of us have followed their wonderful journey together.
This morning, that journey ended as Amelia earned her wings and will be waiting for her families at the Rainbow Bridge.
Before she left, Amelia asked for a favor from all of us. She asked us to consider an elderly or ill dog if/when you adopt. She proved, over the past year, that they can give love and laughs with the time they have left. I believe this to be true.
So, please learn more about adoption. Visit Lu’s Labs online. Consider Amelia’s book as a good read for you or a friend.
Most importantly, open your heart to the possibility of the great amount of love that remains in our dogs, no matter what their age.
Amelia, I never met you but my eyes were filled with tears of heartbreak when I learned of your passing.
Good dog Amelia. Good dog.
Goose - you’re an amazing person and I thank you for allowing many of us to join you in loving that good dog.
In Germany in 1977, I got a new replacement crewman named Brian. Every new tank crewman starts as a driver, which presumes some mechanical ability. Brian had never owned a car and never used wrenches before joining my crew. He became a legend (in the worst way) when I had to show him how to use an open-end wrench in a tight space.
The head of an open-end wrench is slightly offset. You turn turn a bolt a few degrees, turn the wrench over and turn a few more. It's slow, but you can remove or tighten a bolt in a tight or covered space by flipping the wrench. This process mystified Brian. He got it eventually, but his fellow crew members made merciless fun of him for not knowing how an open-end wrench worked.Knowing or catching on quickly to this kind of process is referred to as having common sense. At the time, I was sure Brian lacked common sense.
But in her most important philosophical book The Human Condition, Hannah Arendt says that by the time Brian was accused of lacking common sense, the whole culture had lost what was common sense across the world.
Arendt says that the rise of modern science, beginning with Galileo's invention of the telescope, showed we could no longer trust our senses.
Common Sense took the experience of our five senses and gave them a unified frame of interpretation. But Galileo showed us that what our senses can be completely wrong even when we simply look at the night sky. In her book Being Wrong Kathryn Schulz explains how thoroughly wrong we can be when all of our senses tell us we are right.
Arendt says that when we cannot trust the most obvious perception of our sense, we eventually lose the common sense that still is valued in its absence a half millennia later. If physics on a cosmic scale says we are wrong when we perceive the sun circling east to west every day, it's worse at the atomic level. Who can really believe an oak table is as much empty space as the night sky. The solid hardwood of every oak plank at the atomic level protons, neutrons and electrons and a whole bunch of nothing. And those atoms are strung together held by charge with mostly empty space in every direction.
Poor Brian could blame every physicist from Galileo Gallilei to Albert Einstein to Richard Feynman to Roger Penrose for proving that nothing that his senses experience is as it appears.
The Cold War sergeants' lament that "none of my soldiers has a lick of common sense" was more true than he knew. The sad thing is, that old sergeant did not have much common sense in the traditional sense either.
In 2014 or 2015, Mike Pavasco was also in charge of resiliency training for the company we were in. He is a very upbeat guy. He asked me to be one of the presenters for the training. I turned him down. I had no other choice at the time, I did not believe the training would do any good.
I left the Army the following year in 2016. When I met up with Mike at the party, it occurred to me I could not only be one of the resiliency training sergeants now, I really have come to believe in the program.
It's almost crazy to think how far I have come in changing my view of meditation, yoga and balance in life. In 2014 I had just finished an Ironman Triathlon and was an advocate for an out-of-balance life focused on athletic goals.
While I was training for the Ironman, when I had an injury and a physical therapist said, "Listen to your body" I would think, 'My body is a whiny little bitch. I'm not listening.'
Now when a PT says "Listen to your body" I listen to her and do (or not) what my body says.
The pandemic interrupted my yoga practice, when I returned last month I injured my knee--the one that is still me, not metal. But I have meditated every day for more than three years--even days of injury and surgery and recovery.
Resiliency also involves spiritual practice. The path to peace for most of us is spiritual, even for those who have no religious practice.
Along with adding meditation and yoga to my life, I had a huge spiritual upheaval in my life that led to peace. The winner of the 2016 Presidential election turned my spiritual world upside down. Christians across America first supported and then worshipped a man who bragged about breaking commandments, who is the inverse of the Beatitudes. Conservative Catholics and Evangelicals decided a vain liar was their man. They even made up stories about how he was a modern-day King Cyrus.
Every white supremacist, militia member and Nazi wannabe in America celebrated. Steve Bannon--the head of the white nationalist website Breitbart--got an office in the White House. The following summer I visited Auschwitz and Yad Vashem and came home to Nazis marching in Charlottesville chanting "Jews will not replace us."
I joined a synagogue a few months later. During World War II, 400 million self-described Christians lived between the Pyrenees and Ural mountains. About one in a thousand helped Jews, 999 of a thousand looked the other way or joined in the looting, dispossession and murder of the Holocaust. Nazis were now "fine people" in America.
I thought things would get much worse than they have. But whatever happens, I have peace knowing the Synagogue is the place I should be.
Resiliency training makes sense to me now. It touches every dimension of life and can really help in a difficult world.
Today I began what will be a very Army weekend by going to a Welcome Home Party for Task Force Anvil. The unit I went to Iraq with in 2009-10 went back to the Middle East last year, returning a few weeks ago.
Shortly after I arrived, Dale Shade said hello and asked me to have a seat with him at the bar. He was the sergeant in charge of public affairs on the last deployment. For the last four months of the deployment, I worked in the same office as Dale and Matt. The deployment was not going well, the staff officers in brigade headquarters were at each other's throats. Dale had to listen to complaints from frustrated officers who needed someone to blame or just to bitch at. He was the lightning rod that kept the rest of us from getting hit with the thunderbolts from the hastily built headquarters we called the plywood palace.
I had not seen Dale since I left the Army five years ago. It was fun to catch up. And strange to see a former sergeant with shoulder-length hair.
The original post about the public affairs detachment in Iraq is here.
A friend who is amused by my own wandering spiritual path in the last half decade asked about the faith/religion/spirituality of my six kids.
My response was a smirk that turned into a laugh.
"Six kids, six spiritual paths. That's for sure."
Right now (things could change as I am writing this) five of my kids are some flavor of Christianity and one is an agnostic, possibly agnostic about being an agnostic. In age order here is what I know as of now.
My oldest daughter is a fairly conservative Presbyterian who attends a Church near her home where the pastor is her Godfather. My friend Stanley Morton and I both were Evangelicals in the 80s and became Presbyterians in the early 2000s. Stanley went on to become a Presbyterian pastor. Stanley is the Godfather of both of my birth daughters and my youngest son.
(Both of birth daughters attended various churches with me as kids and very occasionally went to the Unitarian Universalist Church. Their mom described herself as a lapsed Unitarian and did not often exercise her right in the divorce decree to take the girls to her church.)
My stepdaughter is tolerant and accepting of people of religious faith, but does not believe in God herself and is also the calmest of my six kids. I don't know if there is correlation or causation. When the girls were all in high school, my daughters were insanely competitive. My stepdaughter was between them in age and sometimes between them in fact, the calming influence that kept them from killing each other.
My younger daughter was baptized into the Catholic Church last weekend. My youngest son and I flew out to see the ceremony. The Church in which the ceremony took place is theologically conservative. She is the only one of my six kids to go on a Birthright trip or do anything Jewish. She also was deeper into Eastern mysticism than the other kids and at one point seemed convinced of biological determinism--we have no free will, our genes determine our actions. She now attends mass three times per week.
My adopted daughter grew up Catholic, attending a Catholic school and Church. She is currently a conservative Evangelical as is her husband.
My older adopted son could be described as the most religious of the kids in the sense that he has been baptized and converted three times. He has religious moments and hours, but then returns to living the "chill" life he prefers.
My youngest son attends Church when he is with any of his siblings who attend Church but does not when he is on his own. He likes his Godfather Stanley's Church the best and attends there when he is in Richmond.
But wait! There's more!
Having said six kids, I realized even the number is not definite. In addition to the three birth kids and three adopted kids, we had a host daughter who lived with us for almost two years on a break between college and medical school. She had arrived at Franklin and Marshall College as a freshman not a believer. By graduation, she was the head of InterVarsity Christian Fellowship at the college. Her family was not pleased. But they were reconciled and she went to medical school. This week she begins a three-year residency in Georgia and considers medicine her ministry.
I voted yesterday. I dropped off my mail-in ballot at the Lancaster City offices. Two police officers on duty at the entrance watched me drop my ballot in the box.
Since 2016 I have wondered if the next election I vote in will be the last free and fair election.
Russians did not know in 1991 that the presidential election would be the first, last and only free election they would ever have.
Germans voted in 1932 and did not vote again until after their country was in ruins and under the control of the countries that defeated Naziism. For East Germany, they would wait until after the collapse of the Soviet Union to vote again.
I believe the 2022 elections will be as corrupt as the Republicans can get away with, but they will do their authoritarian worst in 2024.
Last week I was talking to a group of friends who are mostly independents. I was defending my loyalty to the Democratic Party. I tried to stay numerical. The most recent numbers say 40% of Americans identify as independent vs. 26% R and 31% D. And yet those 40% of people vote almost entirely with one party or another and have no political power as a bloc.
Being an independent means having no power. Being a party member evokes that memorable line from "The Wire" when the retired mayor explains to the hopeful candidate what the mayor's job is like:
"Every morning I sit at my desk. They bring in a big, steaming bowl of shit and I have to eat every bite."
For a former military, fiscally conservative, pro-Israel voter like me, I find something to disagree with every day in being a Democrat. But the alternative is the orange-god-king worshipping racists who want to burn democracy and rule from the Redneck Versailles in Florida.
So I will be happily loyal to the Democratic Party and support everything I can and hope national debt does not become a multiple of the our GDP.
In Russia, May 9 is Victory Day, the annual celebration of defeating the Nazis in World War II. I am happy to celebrate dead and defeated Nazis any time. But May 9 has a new significance for me.
This evening I had the chance to speak with several staff members of Paws for Purple Hearts: an organization that provides and trains service dogs for recovering veterans.
The people I spoke with train dogs to be companions to veterans and provide training for veterans who bring the dogs into their lives.
My daughter is a clinical consultant for Paws for Purple Hearts. She asked me to speak to the group about my experience serving in the military during and after the draft and the Vietnam War, and then returning in 2007 and deploying to Iraq.
I spoke about soldiers I served with in both time periods: how they were the same and how they were different in the 1970s and 2010s. Paws for Purple Hearts works with veterans from our recent wars and from the wars of the last century. Soldiers, like all of us, are shaped by the society we live in. The difference in the experience of draft-era veterans and current veterans is most evident to me in the subject of suicide.
I told the group about how suicide was treated in the 70s and in the 2010s after I returned from deployment. It was so different. I wrote about it here. Suicide was condemned by everyone in the 70s. The soldiers I knew who took their own lives after Iraq were treated the same as combat deaths.
In both the 70s and the 2010s, I knew soldiers who could not stop their hands from shaking and were kept on limited duty so they could retire. They were combat veterans suffering with PTSD but wanted to finish their careers. The military is certainly better about dealing with PTSD now than during the Vietnam War, but the kind of person who becomes a soldier has trouble dealing with personal weakness. So it is important to deal with soldiers as individuals who need help but do not want to feel weak.
I got a lot of good questions in the Q&A. One was about how counselors could best work with older veterans. The soldiers who served during the draft era in general and the Vietnam War in particular often deeply mistrust the government and authority. I knew and know many veterans of that era who felt betrayed and abandoned by the government that sent them to a hopeless war. I said it was important to acknowledge the importance of their service and the sacrifice they and their friends made. Being part of the welcome home they did not get 50 years ago could help establish trust.
Next time I go to Richmond, I hope to visit Paws for Purple Hearts in Ruther Glen, Virginia, near my daughter's home.
The Mission of Paws for Purple Hearts:
Paws for Purple Hearts improves the lives of America’s Warriors facing mobility challenges and trauma-related conditions such as PTSD and TBI by providing the highest quality assistance dogs and canine-assisted therapeutic programs; and by building public awareness about the important role dogs play in helping Warriors along the road to recovery.
I can still remember the relief I felt every week taking that sweaty rubber gas mask off.
I felt that way this week when President Joe Biden confirmed that vaccinated people do not have to wear masks outdoors or when with other vaccinated people.
Europe is now welcoming vaccinated Americans to visit.
In the 1970s, I did not like wearing the mask, but wore it because that was my job. During the pandemic I did not like wearing the mask, but it was necessary to keep the epidemic from getting worse.
Now we are moving past the mask and life is returning to normal.
Hallelujah!!!
I am part of a Facebook group called War Movie Zone. I read posts looking for other people's views of war movies that I loved, liked or hated.
Because there are fans from all over the world with a variety of backgrounds, I get perspectives on movies that are interesting, even when I disagree.
When someone mentions a movie I saw one or two or five decades ago, I try to remember how I saw the movie the first time in contrast to later. The same movie looks very different to the veteran approaching 70 years old than the same movie did to a 12-year-old in a Boston theater.
I recently watched "Battle of the Bulge" with one of my sons. I first saw it in a theater in Boston in 1965. My twelve-year-old self saw a vast drama of arrogant Nazis stopped by ingenious Americans. Since that time I spent nine years a tank commander and last in a war zone in 2010. The big Hollywood drama looked much smaller in 2020.
In 2014 I took my son to see "Fury" in a local theater. Compared with the 1965 movie, Fury used actual Sherman tanks and even had a fully operating German Tiger tank. It had a lot of contrived Hollywood drama, especially at the end, but I saw the movie several times, delighted with the way the crew joked, and talked and fought with each other.
My favorite war drama ever is "Band of Brothers." I have read the book and had the unusual (for me) experience of liking the HBO drama better than the book. When I deployed to Iraq in 2009 we watched a lot of movies in pre-deployment training. Soldiers, both now and when I served during the 70s and 80s love to make fun of war movies. But I never heard anyone make fun of Band of Brothers.
Look up War Movie Zone on Facebook if you want strong opinions about war movies.
Nearly all of the Afghanistan veterans in my unit agreed the country is beautiful. Many wanted to go back. During the 20 years this war lasted, many did go some on multiple tours.
Now the longest American war is over. President Biden said we will be out by September 11, 2021, the 20th anniversary of the attack on America that led to our invasion of Afghanistan.
The British and the Russians both suffered major defeats in Afghanistan. The country has a reputation as "the graveyard of empires."
My fondest memories of the deployment that wasn't was training with these guys:
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