Veteran of four wars, four enlistments, four branches: Air Force, Army, Army Reserve, Army National Guard. I am both an AF (Air Force) veteran and as Veteran AF (As Fuck)
Sunday, June 19, 2022
Deutsche Panzer Museum--World War II Tanks
Friday, July 16, 2021
Surviving War and Terror: Sister Hildegard
On my second day in Dresden, I met Sister Hildegard. She is 84 and has lived in Dresden all of her long life. During that life her world has changed dramatically again and again.
She was born in 1937, one of four children of German parents. Her father was a member of the Nazi party. Her mother had left the Church so there was no religion in her early life. The war began in 1939 when Hildegard was two and soon her father left to serve in the army. At the beginning of 1943 her father was reported "missing presumed dead" in the Battle of Stalingrad.
Also in 1943, Allied bombing of Germany began in earnest. Hildegard and her siblings went to the country for school. In February 1945 the beautiful city of Dresden was smashed and burned in consecutive nights of Royal Air Force fire bombing raids.
The war ended in May of 1945, with more trouble ahead. Dresden was in the Soviet occupation zone so the communist East German government was in charge. When Hildegard turned 14 years old in 1953 she had to find a job. She could not continue her education. The problem was not that her father was a Nazi, it was that her parents were educated. Preference for education under the communists went to the children of workers.
Hildegard found work at a Catholic hospital in Dresden. At first she cleaned bricks to help in rebuilding the hospital which was nearly completely destroyed in the fire bombing of 1945. She eventually trained as a nurse and decided to become a sister in the order of nuns that work in the hospital. Her mother returned to faith in 1947 and would become part of the Land of Kanaan sisterhood in Darmstadt.
Until 1961, Hildegard and her family could cross back and forth between East and West Germany with little difficulty. But the Berlin Crisis in 1961 led to a fully closed border. Hildegard was in Dresden. Her mother was in Darmstadt and it would be many years before they were reunited.
With the communists in full control, Hildegard took charge of the OB GYN section of the hospital from 1967 to 1997. She worked under increasingly harsh control by the communists then suddenly in 1990 they were gone. One of the things that made life bearable under the communists was everyone in her community and in other faith communities were clear that the danger was the communists. The communists had spies everywhere. As devout Catholics the nuns were always under suspicion.
But believers were all united in opposition to the communists. When communism fell, the freedom that followed led to competition and the end of opposition to a single enemy and the unity that went with it.
Sisters who had lived through the Nazi era said life then was very different. During that time, some of the sisters were devoted Nazis and some were ardently against the Nazis. The challenge was to keep the community together when the worst strife was within. Hildegard said after the war, the sisters who were devoted Nazis either repented or left the order. The purge was rapid.
My friend Cliff and I visited Sister Hildegard in her room in the hospital residential area for nuns and women in long-term care. She speaks no English. I speak no German. Cliff and Hildegard talked and every ten minutes of so, Cliff would give me a summary of what he learned. I asked questions in these intervals.
Part of her story was in a speech she gave in 2015 explaining the many radical changes she lived through. She and Cliff reviewed the speech which was written in neat handwriting while I watched and wished I had learned German. She does not have a computer or a phone--except the phone with a wire on her desk.
Sister Hildegard has retired from nursing but still a leader in her community. We ate lunch in the hospital cafeteria and sat at her table. As the guest, I got to sit in her chair and eat some very good goulash and mashed potatoes. On the walk to and from the cafeteria she greeted everyone we met with a smile. She is in every way a gracious host.
Friday, July 28, 2017
Back in Touch with My Cold War Motorhead
My 20-country tour across Europe with a side trip to Israel got me back in touch with my inner motorhead. I grew up addicted to cars. In graduate school, I had an autobiography seminar. One of the papers was a 15-page autobiography. I wrote that paper with December 19, 1969, at the exact center of the middle page: the day I got my license. As I saw it in 1983, my whole life before that date had been getting ready to get my license; my life after that had been dominated by cars, trucks, motorcycles and tanks. By that year I had owned 27 cars, trucks and motorcycles. By 1993 I had owned 37 of the 41 vehicles I have owned or driven long term.
My visit to Eastern Europe on what was supposed to be a bike and train trip re-awakened my love of cars.
In the nearly 50 years since I got my license I have driven cars as small as a 1964 Opel and as large as an M60A1 Patton tank. One of my favorite cars was a 1968 Renault 16TS I owned during the last year I was stationed in Wiesbaden, West Germany, in 1979. This little car had a 4-speed shifter on the steering column. It was nimble, quick and a lot of fun to drive on the narrow roads of Germany.
During my recent trip to Eastern Europe, I rented a car three different times for a day or two to get places I could not get on a train or a bike in the time I had. The first car I rented was a Toyota Auris. I rented it in Belgrade for 48 hours. In that 48 hours, I drove to Croatia and Bosnia. In both countries, I stopped near the border and rode my bike to see some of the local country. Then next day I drove to Macedonia, arrived two hours before dark and rode to the Kosovo border. The next day I drove to Thessaloniki, Greece, then Sofia, Bulgaria and back to Belgrade and returned the car.
Three weeks later I was in France. I had two days before I flew to Israel, so I rented another Car, as Spanish Ibiza, and drove to Normandy as far as St. Mere Eglise from Paris.
When I got back from Israel, I had a couple of days before flying home. I had thought about seeing the Tour de France which was in southwest France during those days, but I am much more a fan of Formula 1 car racing than I am of bicycle racing. So I made a 48-hour 2000-kilometer loop from Paris to Cannes, then I went to Monaco, the oldest and most famous race in the World Championship, then through Torino, Italy and under the longest tunnel in the world in Mont Blanc. Then to Geneva for the night and back to Paris in time for the flight. The car for this trip was a six-speed stick shift diesel Citroen.
Three cars from three countries and more than two thousand miles in a total of five days. I love driving in Europe on narrow streets and hundreds of miles of mountain roads. Even after 150,000 miles of bicycling in the last 20 years, I am still a motorhead.
Saturday, July 22, 2017
Going to Fulda from the East
My first visit to Fulda in 40 years was from the East. It was such a strange feeling to approach the border from the East. The last time I went to Fulda was in a tank on an alert. That was the 70s when the Soviet Union still existed. In June, I was a tourist on a train, one of eight trains as it turned out. The most direct route from Berlin to Darmstadt passes though Fulda.
Thursday, October 6, 2016
Cold War Draft Army: Best Army I Served In
When I climbed into my bunk in basic training in 1972, the other 39 soldiers sharing my room were men between 18 and 20 years old. None of us were married. We were from nearly 30 states, from both coasts, mostly from the American South and West, but "Jersey"and I were actually from the Northeast--very rare in the active military.
No one planned to make a career of the military. We were all going to "do our time" and get out. Half of us were planning to use the Vietnam War GI Bill to pay for college, although the reality then and now is fewer than one in ten actually would use their education benefits. At our active duty stations, we all referred to anyone who re-enlisted as a LIFER: Lazy Inefficient Fuckup Expecting Retirement. More than 80% of draft-era soldiers served one enlistment and left the military. We shined our shoes, ironed our starched uniforms, told extravagant lies, and had a common enemy in the sergeants in charge of us.
Five years later in 1977, I was a tank commander in Germany. The draft effectively ended in 1973, and formally ended in 1975, ushering in the era of the Volunteer Army. In 1973, new soldiers joining a unit were 19-year-old single males on short enlistments, usually 2 or 3 years.
From 1975 on, when a new soldier joined our tank unit, that soldier was between 19 and 21 years old. He was married, had one child and his wife was pregnant again. That was the reason many of these guys had enlisted. Most had enlisted for four years because the longer enlistment in Combat Arms had a $2,500 bonus. So my new crewman was married, poor and a father.
The great increase in the number of married soldiers between the early and late 70s meant a lot of soldiers were living off base in poverty in Germany because Base Housing went by rank. And if their young wives were not in country for their two-year tour, there would eventually be a night when the soldier received a Dear John letter. Later he would be blind drunk on 80-cent per bottle Mad Dog, MD 20-20. (Actually the MD stood for Mogen David. MD 20-20 was the cheapest drunk possible and it always made me smile that the mostly southern boys swilling the stuff were getting drunk on Jewish wine.)
By this time I was a sergeant, I had re-enlisted so I was a LIFER. They still called us LIFERS, but with more married soldiers, more of them were re-enlisting. By the late 70s, LIFER had little of the sting it had during the Vietnam War. The Army was a job. The Vietnam War was over and until the Gulf War, the military was a pretty safe job.
Then I re-enlisted into yet another Army in 2007. No one made fun of LIFERs. I could not find anyone under 40 who had ever heard the acronym. In 2007 I enlisted in the 28th Combat Aviation Brigade, Pennsylvania Army National Guard. The unit had more than 100 pilots and several hundred mechanics and flight crew. More than half of the 2,000 soldiers in the brigade were at least considering a career in the Army, if they were not already committed to Army life.
The current Army, including active, reserve and National Guard, is a professional army. The Army of World War II really represented a huge cross-section of America. Every family either had a soldier in their family or a soldier next door. After World War II, for the first time in U.S. history, the wartime Army was not demobilized. Most of the soldiers went home, but the draft continued and a sizable force remained ready for war as well as occupying the countries of former enemies.
By the time the draft ended almost 30 years later, the Army represented the south and west much more than the northeast. But it was still not a professional Army. When I re-enlisted in 2007, I was the only soldier that many of my co-workers actually knew. The museum where I worked had a staff of 55 and had been in business for more than a quarter century. I was the third veteran who had ever worked there. When I deployed they had to write a policy for National Guard service. They never had a serving guardsman before. My co-workers, to use the southern expression, had more degrees than a thermometer: more than two degrees per person on average including the maintenance staff. People from cities in the northeast mostly don't even think about military service.
The result is an Army that does not represent America. It is an Army that is easier to send to war because the people who make the decisions never served and the soldiers who go to war will not come from every city, town, village and neighborhood.
A draft Army is much tougher for politicians to send to war, and the soldiers want to go home when the war is over. That, to me, is a better Army for the soldiers and for the nation.
Thursday, February 18, 2016
Americans in West Germany During the Cold War: Don't Piss Off the Polezei!
Thursday, January 21, 2016
Tank Vs. Citroen 2CV: Polezei on German Roads
Two medics following the column ran to check the driver and passenger of the car. All columns also had a jeep following with a German and an American officer and a lot of cash ready to pay claims for damage on the spot. That jeep drove to the crash site. Within another minute, the Polezei, German police, were at the scene. The driver of the tank was a mess thinking he was in trouble for the accident.
The Polezei looked at the driver, waved off the settlement officers and the medics and said, "Betrunken." Drunk. They marched the driver to their car and took him away and told us to move on.
The driver was drunk. It was his fault. We moved on. No breathalyzers, no legal niceties. Justice is swift on German roads.
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