The book Formosa Betrayed, George Kerr, traces the history of the island nation that has been in dispute among nations vying for control of the South China Sea for more than a century. Taiwan came under Japanese control in 1895. At the end of World War II, Taiwan was neglected and betrayed by America and other allied governments.
Veteran of four wars, four enlistments, four branches: Air Force, Army, Army Reserve, Army National Guard. I am both an AF (Air Force) veteran and as Veteran AF (As Fuck)
Wednesday, June 2, 2021
Formosa Betrayed--A Chronicle of a Cold War Failure
The book Formosa Betrayed, George Kerr, traces the history of the island nation that has been in dispute among nations vying for control of the South China Sea for more than a century. Taiwan came under Japanese control in 1895. At the end of World War II, Taiwan was neglected and betrayed by America and other allied governments.
Saturday, May 29, 2021
Reunion at a Welcome Home for Task Force Anvil
Today I began what will be a very Army weekend by going to a Welcome Home Party for Task Force Anvil. The unit I went to Iraq with in 2009-10 went back to the Middle East last year, returning a few weeks ago.
Shortly after I arrived, Dale Shade said hello and asked me to have a seat with him at the bar. He was the sergeant in charge of public affairs on the last deployment. For the last four months of the deployment, I worked in the same office as Dale and Matt. The deployment was not going well, the staff officers in brigade headquarters were at each other's throats. Dale had to listen to complaints from frustrated officers who needed someone to blame or just to bitch at. He was the lightning rod that kept the rest of us from getting hit with the thunderbolts from the hastily built headquarters we called the plywood palace.
I had not seen Dale since I left the Army five years ago. It was fun to catch up. And strange to see a former sergeant with shoulder-length hair.
The original post about the public affairs detachment in Iraq is here.
Tuesday, May 25, 2021
Are Your Kids Religious?
A friend who is amused by my own wandering spiritual path in the last half decade asked about the faith/religion/spirituality of my six kids.
My response was a smirk that turned into a laugh.
"Six kids, six spiritual paths. That's for sure."
Right now (things could change as I am writing this) five of my kids are some flavor of Christianity and one is an agnostic, possibly agnostic about being an agnostic. In age order here is what I know as of now.
My oldest daughter is a fairly conservative Presbyterian who attends a Church near her home where the pastor is her Godfather. My friend Stanley Morton and I both were Evangelicals in the 80s and became Presbyterians in the early 2000s. Stanley went on to become a Presbyterian pastor. Stanley is the Godfather of both of my birth daughters and my youngest son.
(Both of birth daughters attended various churches with me as kids and very occasionally went to the Unitarian Universalist Church. Their mom described herself as a lapsed Unitarian and did not often exercise her right in the divorce decree to take the girls to her church.)
My stepdaughter is tolerant and accepting of people of religious faith, but does not believe in God herself and is also the calmest of my six kids. I don't know if there is correlation or causation. When the girls were all in high school, my daughters were insanely competitive. My stepdaughter was between them in age and sometimes between them in fact, the calming influence that kept them from killing each other.
My younger daughter was baptized into the Catholic Church last weekend. My youngest son and I flew out to see the ceremony. The Church in which the ceremony took place is theologically conservative. She is the only one of my six kids to go on a Birthright trip or do anything Jewish. She also was deeper into Eastern mysticism than the other kids and at one point seemed convinced of biological determinism--we have no free will, our genes determine our actions. She now attends mass three times per week.
My adopted daughter grew up Catholic, attending a Catholic school and Church. She is currently a conservative Evangelical as is her husband.
My older adopted son could be described as the most religious of the kids in the sense that he has been baptized and converted three times. He has religious moments and hours, but then returns to living the "chill" life he prefers.
My youngest son attends Church when he is with any of his siblings who attend Church but does not when he is on his own. He likes his Godfather Stanley's Church the best and attends there when he is in Richmond.
But wait! There's more!
Having said six kids, I realized even the number is not definite. In addition to the three birth kids and three adopted kids, we had a host daughter who lived with us for almost two years on a break between college and medical school. She had arrived at Franklin and Marshall College as a freshman not a believer. By graduation, she was the head of InterVarsity Christian Fellowship at the college. Her family was not pleased. But they were reconciled and she went to medical school. This week she begins a three-year residency in Georgia and considers medicine her ministry.
Tuesday, May 18, 2021
Voting While I Still Can
I voted yesterday. I dropped off my mail-in ballot at the Lancaster City offices. Two police officers on duty at the entrance watched me drop my ballot in the box.
Since 2016 I have wondered if the next election I vote in will be the last free and fair election.
Russians did not know in 1991 that the presidential election would be the first, last and only free election they would ever have.
Germans voted in 1932 and did not vote again until after their country was in ruins and under the control of the countries that defeated Naziism. For East Germany, they would wait until after the collapse of the Soviet Union to vote again.
I believe the 2022 elections will be as corrupt as the Republicans can get away with, but they will do their authoritarian worst in 2024.
Last week I was talking to a group of friends who are mostly independents. I was defending my loyalty to the Democratic Party. I tried to stay numerical. The most recent numbers say 40% of Americans identify as independent vs. 26% R and 31% D. And yet those 40% of people vote almost entirely with one party or another and have no political power as a bloc.
Being an independent means having no power. Being a party member evokes that memorable line from "The Wire" when the retired mayor explains to the hopeful candidate what the mayor's job is like:
"Every morning I sit at my desk. They bring in a big, steaming bowl of shit and I have to eat every bite."
For a former military, fiscally conservative, pro-Israel voter like me, I find something to disagree with every day in being a Democrat. But the alternative is the orange-god-king worshipping racists who want to burn democracy and rule from the Redneck Versailles in Florida.
So I will be happily loyal to the Democratic Party and support everything I can and hope national debt does not become a multiple of the our GDP.
Tuesday, May 11, 2021
"Klara and the Sun" by Kazuo Ishiguro, a Review
Spoiler Alert!!
Friday, May 7, 2021
May 9: Victory Day for Russia, Crash Day for Me
In Russia, May 9 is Victory Day, the annual celebration of defeating the Nazis in World War II. I am happy to celebrate dead and defeated Nazis any time. But May 9 has a new significance for me.
Tuesday, May 4, 2021
Talking About Veterans with Paws for Purple Hearts
This evening I had the chance to speak with several staff members of Paws for Purple Hearts: an organization that provides and trains service dogs for recovering veterans.
The people I spoke with train dogs to be companions to veterans and provide training for veterans who bring the dogs into their lives.
My daughter is a clinical consultant for Paws for Purple Hearts. She asked me to speak to the group about my experience serving in the military during and after the draft and the Vietnam War, and then returning in 2007 and deploying to Iraq.
I spoke about soldiers I served with in both time periods: how they were the same and how they were different in the 1970s and 2010s. Paws for Purple Hearts works with veterans from our recent wars and from the wars of the last century. Soldiers, like all of us, are shaped by the society we live in. The difference in the experience of draft-era veterans and current veterans is most evident to me in the subject of suicide.
I told the group about how suicide was treated in the 70s and in the 2010s after I returned from deployment. It was so different. I wrote about it here. Suicide was condemned by everyone in the 70s. The soldiers I knew who took their own lives after Iraq were treated the same as combat deaths.
In both the 70s and the 2010s, I knew soldiers who could not stop their hands from shaking and were kept on limited duty so they could retire. They were combat veterans suffering with PTSD but wanted to finish their careers. The military is certainly better about dealing with PTSD now than during the Vietnam War, but the kind of person who becomes a soldier has trouble dealing with personal weakness. So it is important to deal with soldiers as individuals who need help but do not want to feel weak.
I got a lot of good questions in the Q&A. One was about how counselors could best work with older veterans. The soldiers who served during the draft era in general and the Vietnam War in particular often deeply mistrust the government and authority. I knew and know many veterans of that era who felt betrayed and abandoned by the government that sent them to a hopeless war. I said it was important to acknowledge the importance of their service and the sacrifice they and their friends made. Being part of the welcome home they did not get 50 years ago could help establish trust.
Next time I go to Richmond, I hope to visit Paws for Purple Hearts in Ruther Glen, Virginia, near my daughter's home.
The Mission of Paws for Purple Hearts:
Paws for Purple Hearts improves the lives of America’s Warriors facing mobility challenges and trauma-related conditions such as PTSD and TBI by providing the highest quality assistance dogs and canine-assisted therapeutic programs; and by building public awareness about the important role dogs play in helping Warriors along the road to recovery.
Thursday, April 29, 2021
Free At Last! No Mask for the Vaccinated!
In Cold War West Germany in the 1970s we wore our masks at least two hours every week while working and training.
I can still remember the relief I felt every week taking that sweaty rubber gas mask off.
I felt that way this week when President Joe Biden confirmed that vaccinated people do not have to wear masks outdoors or when with other vaccinated people.
Europe is now welcoming vaccinated Americans to visit.
In the 1970s, I did not like wearing the mask, but wore it because that was my job. During the pandemic I did not like wearing the mask, but it was necessary to keep the epidemic from getting worse.
Now we are moving past the mask and life is returning to normal.
Hallelujah!!!
Wednesday, April 21, 2021
War Movies Across Seven Decades
I am part of a Facebook group called War Movie Zone. I read posts looking for other people's views of war movies that I loved, liked or hated.
Because there are fans from all over the world with a variety of backgrounds, I get perspectives on movies that are interesting, even when I disagree.
When someone mentions a movie I saw one or two or five decades ago, I try to remember how I saw the movie the first time in contrast to later. The same movie looks very different to the veteran approaching 70 years old than the same movie did to a 12-year-old in a Boston theater.
I recently watched "Battle of the Bulge" with one of my sons. I first saw it in a theater in Boston in 1965. My twelve-year-old self saw a vast drama of arrogant Nazis stopped by ingenious Americans. Since that time I spent nine years a tank commander and last in a war zone in 2010. The big Hollywood drama looked much smaller in 2020.
In 2014 I took my son to see "Fury" in a local theater. Compared with the 1965 movie, Fury used actual Sherman tanks and even had a fully operating German Tiger tank. It had a lot of contrived Hollywood drama, especially at the end, but I saw the movie several times, delighted with the way the crew joked, and talked and fought with each other.
My favorite war drama ever is "Band of Brothers." I have read the book and had the unusual (for me) experience of liking the HBO drama better than the book. When I deployed to Iraq in 2009 we watched a lot of movies in pre-deployment training. Soldiers, both now and when I served during the 70s and 80s love to make fun of war movies. But I never heard anyone make fun of Band of Brothers.
Look up War Movie Zone on Facebook if you want strong opinions about war movies.
Thursday, April 15, 2021
My Last War (Almost) Ends
In 2012, I was on a roster of soldiers who were supposed to deploy to Afghanistan with a Pennsylvania National Guard Stryker Brigade. President Obama cancelled the deployment. It was the fourth and last war I volunteered for.
Nearly all of the Afghanistan veterans in my unit agreed the country is beautiful. Many wanted to go back. During the 20 years this war lasted, many did go some on multiple tours.
Now the longest American war is over. President Biden said we will be out by September 11, 2021, the 20th anniversary of the attack on America that led to our invasion of Afghanistan.
The British and the Russians both suffered major defeats in Afghanistan. The country has a reputation as "the graveyard of empires."
My fondest memories of the deployment that wasn't was training with these guys:
Saturday, April 10, 2021
My Love-Hate Relationship with the Military
Next month I will be talking to a veterans support group about PTSD in the 70s Army and during the Iraq War. It was fun to try to put my military career in 100 words:
Monday, April 5, 2021
Vaccines and the Anthrax Chapel
Twelve years ago, I got vaccinated for deployment to Iraq at the Anthrax Chapel at Fort Sill, Oklahoma. Fort Sill was one of the places National Guard soldiers went to train before the big trip east to the Middle East.
The building really was a chapel before it was converted to a place soldiers lined up for vaccinations and other shots. The anthrax vaccination was as useless as our gas masks in terms of actual threats to our lives, but we all had a gas mask and we all got vaccinated against a biological attack with the anthrax virus.
During the forty-odd years I was in and out of the Army I got vaccinated for many things and had no particular ill effects beyond aches and a day of mild illness.
I got vaccinated for COVID two weeks ago and was delighted to get a vaccine I really wanted and needed. I felt that way several years ago when I got the shingles vaccine. I had two friends who had terrible cases of shingles. They, like me, had chicken pox as children, before that vaccine. Having childhood chicken pox potentially makes shingles worse as an adult. The doctor wasn't sure it was covered by insurance. I told him to give me the shot.
Vaccines are surely one of the five great medical innovations in all of human history. To be anti-vaxx is simply to be as dumb as a bag of lug nuts. Like seatbelts and motorcycle helmets, whatever the risk, it is vastly less than the risk of no seatbelt, no helmet and no vaccine.
Friday, March 26, 2021
The Life of a Russian Monk and Holy Fool in the late 1400s: Laurus
In 2016, the ESL Book Group I am part of began when four of us kept asking each other, "Did you read this book? What do you think about it?"
The first of many books we would read was Laurus, a book about a Russian Monk and Holy Fool set in the late 1,400s. Sarah Gingrich loved this book and convinced Andrea Bailey and I to read it.
I just finished re-reading it yesterday. At my age, much of it was new again five years later. This Sunday afternoon our book group will discuss Laurus and for the first time a monk will be part of our discussion. My best friend Cliff became Bruder Timotheus after both of us left the military in 1979. He stayed in Germany at a monastery in Darmstadt. Here is an introduction to Cliff.
I am very much looking forward to discussing this strange and wonderful book. Here is what I wrote about my first reading.
Wednesday, March 17, 2021
Celebrating a Million Views; Almost 2,000 Posts; Top Posts are Cold War, Iraq War and WWII
When I started this blog it was to record my deployment to Iraq in 2009-10. I landed at Camp Adder on my 56th birthday and thought it would be worth keeping a record of life for an Old Cold War Soldier in a 21st Century War.
When I returned from Iraq, I did not know how long I would stay. I kept writing blog posts about my part-time service in the National Guard. Over time and after I left the Guard, I wrote more about my service in the Cold War, then about books I was reading, and about soldiers I served with.
I plan to keep writing about soldiers I served with. I will be going to a reunion of my Cold War tank unit later this year. Once most of the world is vaccinated, I plan to visit more Cold War landmarks in Europe, Vietnam and Israel. The wars in Korea, Israel, Vietnam, Afghanistan, Grenada and other places between 1946 and 1991 are also part of the Cold War legacy. I hope to visit as many as I can and write about it.
All of life follows the exponential curve and my blog posts are no exception. The top ten of more than 1,900 posts have almost 100,000 views, or one-tenth of all the views of my posts. Five of the top ten are about the Cold War, four from the Iraq War and one about a veteran of World War II.
The top posts in order of number of views:
A friend from the Iraq War promoted to Colonel: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2017/12/who-fights-our-wars-sons-of-veterans.html
A World War II bomber pilot who flew with the author of Catch-22: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/08/reality-catches-up-with-fiction-70.html
My first military haircut, February 1, 1972: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/02/my-first-military-haircut-february-1.html
The best top sergeant I ever served with: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2016/02/who-fights-our-wars-command-sgt-major.html
The smell of diesel takes me back to the Cold War Army: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2009/10/diesel.html
One of the most dramatic moments I experienced, watching a half dozen B-52 Stratofortress bombers scramble on Hill Air Force Base, Utah, in 1974: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/09/unforgettable-moment-b-52s-scramble.html
Outside Lowry Air Force Base in 1972 was the Topless Shoeshine Parlor: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/02/the-topless-shoeshine-parlor-draft-era.html
The saddest story on my blog about a World War II veteran and Cold War scientist: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/01/boris-libman-terrible-life-of-soviet.html
A Blackhawk helicopter pilot from my Iraq tour in 2009-10: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/02/who-fights-our-wars-doc-dreher.html
My Home Sweet Trailer Home in Iraq: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2009/05/home-sweet-trailer-home.html
And a few more of my favorites:
Tanks from the inside and outside: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/06/tanks-from-inside-tanks-from-outside.html
C-Rations vs. MREs: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2018/01/mre-vs-c-rations-for-me-21st-century.html
Post-Cold-War Hero: https://armynow.blogspot.com/2017/11/cold-war-hero-who-served-after-1991.html
Monday, March 15, 2021
Democrats Must Claim Patriotism, Family Values
At my Synagogue, our Monday Book Discussion Group is reading Morality: Restoring the Common Good in Divided Times by Rabbi Lord Jonathan Sacks.
As we finish the book, it is clear to me that in our divided country, the definition of patriotism is taking a severe beating. If the Common Good has a chance of being restored in America, then the Democrats must define patriotism in public. We must define what it means to be an American, or the anti-democratic party on the right will redefine America as a dictatorship.
Since 2015, in every way possible, the right wing of American politics and culture has turned its back on democracy and grabbed for power to the point of celebrating immorality. The attack on the Capitol on January 6 was promoted and orchestrated and blessed by the former President and his minions in Congress. They celebrate the murder of police officers. They want more.
He is out of office, but his traitors continue to hold office in our democratic government. That is wrong. Everyone who voted for the insurrection should be stripped of office. The worst of them: Ted Cruz, Josh Hawley and the lawmakers who brought the terrorists into the Capitol should be jailed for their crimes.
The Evangelical Church in America takes the words of Jesus and pisses on them. How could anyone who has ever read the Sermon on the Mount think the former President is sent by or chosen by God? He is a bully, a coward, and brags about breaking commandments. The preachers who promote him are worse because they know better.
Democrats are the only leaders who voted to help poor and needy Americans with relief. The recent rescue bill passed the Congress with the votes of those who care about Americans who lost their jobs, their health, their health insurance, and family members during the pandemic.
Democrats care about and promote Voting Rights, Women's Rights, Civil Rights, and LGBTQ Rights. President Joseph Biden is fighting the pandemic and working to undo the damage done by the former occupant of 1600 Pennsylvania Avenue.
We fight for families,
we fight for kids,
we fight for the poor,
we fight for jobs with a living wage,
we fight for the free exercise of religion,
the other side spews hate and fights only for donors.
Democrats want liberty and justice for all. We are the patriots. The party of Qanon and hate is not America.
Monday, March 8, 2021
Field Guide to Domestic Terrorists: Qanon
On January 6 when domestic terrorists invaded the U.S. Capitol Building, killed and maimed cops and sought to kill lawmakers, the Qanon conspiracy was at the center of the loathesome gang.
Qanon is a dark cave full bat shit in which beliefs, like mushrooms, grow and flourish in dark and gloom. The source of these believes is Q himself (herself?), someone inside the "Deep State" who knows everything and leaks secret information to the true believers.
The New York Times published a deep dive into Qanon beliefs, which I recommend.
- QAnon is a wide-reaching conspiracy theory popular among a range of right-wing extremists and even some public supporters of President Trump.
- QAnon, surfaced in 2017 on 4chan, is first and foremost an online trolling and disinformation movement. While it is difficult to gauge the size of the movement, it is likely that QAnon adherents number in the tens of thousands.
- Adherents follow the anonymous Q, and believe world governments are being controlled by a shadowy cabal of pedophiles (who will eventually be brought to justice by President Trump).
- The QAnon theory is scattershot and sprawling with anti-government elements; adherents actively sow distrust in democratic institutions.
- While the ADL does not believe that all QAnon adherents are inherently extremists, this is a dangerous theory that has inspired violent acts.
Tuesday, March 2, 2021
Books 2021: Red Sea Spies by Raffi Berg
In the late 1970s and early 80s, thousands of Ethiopian Jews escaped from their own country, through Sudan, another state that was an enemy of Israel. The story of that escape and the Israeli Mossad agents who got the Ethiopian Jews to Israel is the subject of the book Red Sea Spies: The True Story of Mossad's Fake Diving Resort by Raffi Berg. The dramatic events inspired a movie on Netflix also.
Berg tells this amazing story with enough detail to show just how difficult and precarious the entire operation was from beginning to end, yet at a page-turner pace. The two men at the center of the story, Dani the agent who organized the operation and kept it going, and Ferede Aklum, the Ethiopian Jew who worked from beginning to end to get his people to Israel, begin with getting a few Jews out with fake documents to the buying and running a diving resort on the Red Sea. The resort allows Jews to be taken out by sea and later is a base that allows hundreds to be flown out at a time on Israeli C-130 Hercules transport planes.
It is a great story from beginning to end. I knew so little about Ethiopian Jews and their exodus from remote areas of the country where they lived for more than a millennium. Now I feel like a witness to a land, sea and air miracle in the late 20th Century.
Enjoy!
Wednesday, February 24, 2021
Field Guide to Domestic Terrorists: The Oath Keepers
The Oath Keepers, a white supremacist terrorist group, had a big role in the insurrection at the U.S. Capitol on January 6. A New York Times report names many of the conspirators and shows how many are military veterans.
One of the moments in the coverage in which my heart sank on January 6 was seeing men in battle gear. In the following days I realized how close we were to an overthrow of the government when I saw a video of the scene above when men in battle gear, Oath Keepers, charged up the Capitol steps. If they had found Mike Pence or other leaders, they would have killed them.
In September of 2008 before I went to Iraq, I went to a Live Fire Shoot House. It was a week-long course with live ammo on how to storm and secure a building. We went into the buildings we attacked in a line just like that used by the Oath Keepers. The men in that line had military or police training or both. All of them should be tried for treason.
This is how the Anti-Defamation League, ADL, describes the Oath Keepers:
The Oath Keepers are a large but loosely organized collection of anti‐government extremists who are part of the broader anti‐government “Patriot” movement, which includes militia and “three percenter” groups, sovereign citizens, and tax protesters, [Boogaloo Boys] among others. What differentiates the Oath Keepers from other anti‐ government extremist groups is that the Oath Keepers explicitly focus on recruiting current and former military members, police officers and firefighters (although they accept anyone as members).Breath by James Nestor: We All Breathe Badly!!
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