Veteran of four wars, four enlistments, four branches: Air Force, Army, Army Reserve, Army National Guard. I am both an AF (Air Force) veteran and as Veteran AF (As Fuck)
Saturday, May 13, 2023
Benetton and the End of Communism and Cigarette Ads
Monday, May 8, 2023
Pissing Contest: Real and Metaphorical
Between birth and enlisting in the U.S. Air Force, I had two addresses. Both in the town of Stoneham nine miles north of Boston. The first was 48 Hancock Street. The second was 41 Oak Street. My parents lived in the house at 41 Oak Street from 1957 until my mother sold the house in the 1990s more than a decade after my Dad passed away.
My first friend in the "new" neighborhood on Oak Street was a boy named Bobby. He lived two houses away at the corner of Oak Street and Victoria Lane. We were friends, and like most boys fighting is part of friendship.
Many times in my life I have had metaphorical pissing contests with other kids, co-workers, and soldiers. But only once did I have an actual pissing contest. Soon after we moved to Oak Street, Bobby and I were playing and something went wrong. Whatever the cause, Bobby and I did not have the side-by-side competition of who can piss farthest, longest, highest.
We turned and faced each other for a battle of who could make the other smell worse. We both won, or lost, depending on how it was judged.
Although my memory of my childhood is very limited, I have some memory of Bobby and I standing next to the tall hedges that separated his yard from the Bishop's house (Mr. and Mrs. Bishop, not a church official) and emptying our bladders toward each other.
Our mothers were displeased at our need for a change of clothes. We were friends for years after, so the actual pissing contest was not fatal to our friendship. In later life, I found having a metaphorical pissing contest could end a relationship. Best to avoid both.
Thursday, May 4, 2023
Nothing Ever Dies: Re-Reading a Haunting Book About War and it's Aftermath
I am re-reading the book Nothing Ever Dies because I first enlisted during the war in Vietnam 51 years ago and this book holds a mirror to my service during that war and all the wars I served in and during over the fifty years that followed.
The notes below are thoughts from reading the first chapters.
Nothing Ever Dies: Vietnam and the Memory of War by Viet Thanh NguyenFriday, April 28, 2023
The Spark in the Machine: A fascinating book about the science behind acupuncture
I am more than halfway through reading The Spark in the Machine: How the Science of Acupuncture Explains the Mysteries of Western Medicine. A good friend is in a graduate medical program learning to be an acupuncturist. When she talked about the electrical basis of how acupuncture works, I became interested.
The book describes how acupuncture works in the spaces between organs and even cells inside the body and uses tiny charges to promote healings. Right away I found myself more interested than I expected. The beginning of the book talks a lot about fascia, the tissue that wraps around organs in the body and divides different zones of the body. Fascia is made from cartilage which also makes up bone and ligaments.
The author says cartilage is a semiconductor. It can carry a charge along its triple helix structure, but like many crystal structures, it can also generate micro charges when bent or compressed.
When DNA does its many jobs in our bodies, the signals move up and down the double helix. Charge carries information among genes. So it made sense that cartilage could carry and generate charges. Also, a crystal that can generate electricity when compressed can be moved when a charge is applied. I am looking forward to seeing how this effect works in acupuncture.
I have not yet had acupuncture, but the book is opening some fascinating views of the body and how it works.
At one point the author was talking about how tough fascia is. In my mind I went to my worst injuries from missile explosions and high-speed crashes and thought, 'Fascia kept my insides inside!'
If you are interested in acupuncture and how it works. This book is really good.
Saturday, April 22, 2023
Three Score and Ten: Second Life Begins This Year
In the first Canto of the Divine Comedy Dante Aligheri tells us he is 35 years old because he is "In the middle of life's journey." Life's journey is three score and ten years, seventy years, which I will reach and pass in ten days.
Dante never reached three score and ten. He died in 1321 in exile from his beloved Florence at the age of 56. The belief that 70 years is the lifespan of a human being is a quote from the Book of Psalms, 90:10
The days of our years are threescore years and ten; and if by reason of strength they be fourscore years, yet is their strength labour and sorrow; for it is soon cut off, and we fly away.
Seventy is a major life milestone, so it has me thinking about what I will do with the next decade.
The previous seven years have been "the best of times and the worst of times" of my life. Living has been wonderful. My family is healthy, I have been healthy except for a few smashed bones, but the major illusions of life got crushed since 2015.
It seems crazy in retrospect, but I really, really believed America was getting better. All of my life from 1964 (The Civil Rights Act) to 2015 (Gay Marriage) more people got more rights and more freedom than ever before. The Jim Crow South became illegal in 1964. By the 1970s women had many more rights, including the the right to choose their own health care options.
In 2004 George W. Bush won re-election with a dirty, Karl-Rove-run campaign against gay rights. By 2015, gay marriage was legal across America. I not only believed more people would get more rights, but I thought the racist rednecks would die out. A Black man was elected President in 2008!
But in 2016, it was clear that the gains of women, Blacks, gay people and other minorities were fragile. The rednecks I thought were going to fade away were cheering their flaccid hero at hate-filled rallies across America. The hater-in-chief promptly put neo-Nazis in the White House. Every action by Trump from then to now is to reverse freedom and end democracy. His fake Christian base loves and supports him and will give up all of their freedom for the white "Christian" nationalist nation he wants to rule as king.
Which leads me to my goals for the future.
- Preserve democracy in the US and abroad--in Ukraine and Taiwan particularly as the front lines of democracy in Europe and Asia.
- To support candidates and protesters here and abroad who want to preserve democracy and fight tyranny.
- To do what I can to keep Israel from falling into illiberal democracy or outright religious tyranny.
- To fight for women's rights and gay rights and minority rights alongside those who are attacked Republicans who want to reverse all rights--except for themselves.
- To enjoy the wonderful life I have that allows me to see friends in America and around the world and support what they are doing.
Sunday, April 16, 2023
Men and Women Under 23 are 80% of the US Military: Many Do Great Things, Some Screw Up
The news is full of the 21-year-old airman Jack Teixeira, the intelligence specialist who is behind the most recent major leak of classified information. Many of the comments I have heard question how someone so young can get access to so much classified information. As if his age was the problem.
In all of military history, young people, much younger people than Teixeira, have had enormous life and death responsibilities. As a former sergeant and leader in the Army, I believe the problem in this case was supervisory. I have friends who are leaders in hospitals, museums, and in small and corporate businesses. Anyone hiring people with access to sensitive information check the social media profiles of their prospective and current employees. Teixeira's leaders failed him; he is still guilty of treason.
In World War II, the Eight Air Force, the bomber command, lost more men than the Marines lost in the entire war in the Pacific. The men in the bombers that flew over German territory had a 50% chance of being alive at the end of 25 missions. That 50/50 chance of being alive is how the Army Air Force set 25 as the number of missions for bomber crews.
Each plane had six enlisted men and four officers. The average age of the enlisted men was 19. The four officers averaged 22 years of age, led by the pilot who was a first lieutenant or captain either side of 25 years old. Whatever age these men began their 25 missions, half of them would be killed, wounded, or captured before they had another birthday.
Each of the ten men in the crew had life-and-death responsibility for the rest of the crew and for other airmen in the planes in their squadron. Most of them were the around the same age as Teixeira when they flew. Half of them were the same age as Teixeira when they died.
The military puts great responsibility in the hands of men and women who are 21 years old. They should review security procedures, but the military has to trust young people.
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*By the time I was 21 years old, I was blinded in a missile explosion and recovering my eyesight. The next year I went to armor training and was a tank commander before my 23rd birthday.
A few months after my 23rd birthday, I was in Colorado packing to go to the East-West border in Germany with 1st Battalion-70th Armor. I read a story in the "Army Times" newspaper that said 80 percent of the Army was less than 23 years old. In 1976 I thought, 'I am older than dirt. Most of the Army is younger than me.'
Even now as I approach my 70th birthday, that day in September 1976 was the oldest I ever felt.
Wednesday, April 12, 2023
When the Flight Goes Wrong, Data is All That Matters
Since 2017 I have flown overseas every year to every continent except Australia: almost 20 trips total. I have flown many airlines. In addition to the trans-Atlantic flights, I have flown short, regional trips within the Americas, Europe and Asia.
My main criteria for picking flights is price. But after I get a list of cheap fares, I eliminate the airlines that have a weak or non-existent back office. In the 1990s when e-commerce was new, many companies had a "sneaker net." They had several systems that were not integrated and had to pass paper or messages between ticketing, scheduling, etc.
I have heard people complain that airlines are annoying when they send regular texts reminding you about seat choice or luggage limits or baggage rules. But those same people are ready to sing Hallelujah! when their flight is delayed, changed or cancelled and they get instant notification with options for rescheduling.
For me, United Airlines is the best in this regard. I have flown American and Delta and they also have excellent apps and notifications. When a United flight got cancelled, my phone lit up with options. I flew TAP, the Portuguese national airlines, for the last time last fall when I had a flight cancelled. The long story about dealing with an airline that has a sneaker net is here.
Since I travel with no checked luggage, I can check in on line for most flights and walk straight to security. I also have TSA PreCheck and Global Entry, so there is no security reason to keep me from automated check in even for overseas flights. With United, I have checked in on line for flights in the US, Brazil and Europe.
I recently flew Norse Atlantic airlines. They have no app; their website seems to allow check in, but then tells me I can't check in on line; they are not integrated with TSA Pre; they have no automated check in at major airports in America or Europe, so travelers like me with no checked luggage stand for an hour in line with people who have five suitcases on baggage carts.
On a recent Norse flight, I got in contact with a customer service rep on email. I told her how long I had been waiting, that I got to the airport three hours early and I did not want to miss my flight. She suggested going ahead of others in the line. I told her I would not do that and suggested they send more people to check in to take care of customers. She could do nothing because they did not have the systems in place.
All Americans saw what happens to an airline with outdated computer systems in the 21st century when a huge winter storm cancelled thousands of flights. All airlines had some flights cancelled. Southwest had half the cancellations of all the airlines combined. Every Wednesday morning I have breakfast with a retired air traffic controller. He knew the Southwest disaster was data management.
I worked for two multi-national companies in the 1990s that switched from paper to fully integrated electronic systems. The switch was long, painful and expensive, but the difference was profound for customers and managers. From manufacturing to delivery there was real time information for every step.
For all the traveling I do, I do not find travel easy even when everything goes well. So while price is my main criteria for picking a flight, I will not fly with an airline that has a lame app and any problems with data management.
I recently flew with Spirit Airlines. I loved it for the old-fashioned reasons of nice people, on-time performance and easy boarding. But if anything had gone wrong, they had an app that would have me on my way as soon as possible. And all for $74 round-trip.
Saturday, April 8, 2023
Gordon Moore: The Chemist at the Center of the High Tech Revolution Dies at 94.
In 1965 when I was twelve years old, I learned basic electronics from a 600-page book published by the Amateur Radio Relay League--the ham radio operators. The big book taught me both vacuum tube circuits and transistor circuits. Integrated circuits were not part of my basic course.
Transistors were invented in 1948. The integrated circuit--transistors and diodes on a single silicon chip--was patented in 1959. In 1964, the number of components on a single chip had risen to 120. The following year, while I pondered the mysteries of triode and pentode tubes along with NPN and PNP transistors, Gordon Moore published the bold prediction that the number of components on a microchip would double roughly every 18 months: Moore's Law.
He was largely correct. I could not even count the quibbles about Moore's Law, but a single microchip can currently include billions of components. Starting at 120 per chip in 1965, billions is a lot of doubling.
In 1968, Gordon Moore was a co-founder of Intel Corporation. He was very much a part of making his own law come true decade after decade.
I met Moore briefly in 2004 and again in 2005. I worked for the Science History Institute, which at the time was very much a museum and library of the history of Chemistry. Moore was there because he was trained as a chemist and saw the high tech revolution very much as a chemical revolution.
In 2005, Moore held the conference celebrating the 40th Anniversary of Moore's Law at the Science History Institute. Most of the speakers flew in from the other coast to Philadelphia. Moore wanted the celebration to be connected to chemistry.
But Moore's 2004 visit to the Institute is a story I have told and retold. At the time our library wanted to acquire the Roy G. Neville Historical Chemical Library: 6,000 rare science books dating back almost to the invention of printing held privately by Neville. The founder and President of the Institute, Arnold Thackray, asked Moore to donate the money to acquire the books. Because there was a competitive bid and not much time to close the deal, Moore wrote a personal check for $10 million in Thackray's office.
Not many people could write a check for $10 million, but Moore could and did and we got the collection.
During the 2005 Moore's Law Conference, Moore spoke about the early days of the high tech revolution and how microchips were everywhere in just 40 years. His remarks gave credit to many people and was full of thanks for great colleagues.
Wednesday, April 5, 2023
Flying Spirit was Delightful: Nothing like their emails
Every seat, even a middle seat cost extra. All food and drinks cost extra. Everything cost extra. And the tone, especially about the bags, is confrontational compared with the big airlines.
And yet.
The full flight to Indianapolis had few open seats. The flight attendant, Lee, in the center of the plane said the empty exit row seats would be open when they shut the cabin doors. So I did not have to sit in my assigned window seat. I sat in an exit row.
During the flight I got up to stretch and talked to Lee again. We had talked earlier about meditation and exercise, she said one of the flight attendants was an avid bicyclist. So I went to the galley and talked to Joseph. Yes, he was a cyclist. For fifteen years before he retired in 2015, he was a professional Ironman Triathlon competitor.
That is an avid cyclist.The kind that can swim 2.4 miles in open water then ride 112 miles in 4.5 hours--his average time. And then run a marathon in under 3 hours. He said the bike was his worst event. Wow!
On the way back the plane was empty. The flight attendants let us move within the zone we were assigned a seat. So again, I was in an aisle and again hand a pleasant uneventful flight.
The round trip air fare was $74, so I had a good reason to fly Spirit. But the flight itself was really good--so much better than I would have predicted from the emails.
Monday, April 3, 2023
Indianapolis Motor Speedway Museum
Tuesday, March 28, 2023
Friend Gets Top Job: He Now Knows He Is An HMFIC
Today I ran into a friend I have known and worked with since the 1990s at a conference in Indianapolis. As we talked I found out he had recently been named Editor-in-Chief of Chemical and Engineering News magazine. In his self-effacing way he told me that his promotion was because so many other high-level editors left recently. But he is and always has been a leader able to manage and get great results from a staff of creative people--one of the more difficult management gigs there is.
I first met Mike when he was named the managing editor of Chemical Market Reporter in the late 1990s. That magazine was, at the time, one of five global weekly chemical news magazines. It began as the Oil, Paint & Drug Reporter in the 1870s. Mike managed 20 columnists who covered various markets when many chemical companies still had offices in or around New York City.
Mike was young and his staff was younger, mostly recent grads of journalism school. They wanted a journalism job in New York. Many of them worked for a year, wrote 50 columns and moved on the other magazines in the chemical news area or business press. Mike and I talked about staff turn over and management. Half the staff went to new jobs in an average year, but Mike could remain calm dealing with constantly hiring and anticipating the loss of his best writers. His magazine had the lowest pay in the chemical industry, so he knew he was training writers for better-paying jobs.
Years later he moved to C&EN managing the business office located then in New Jersey, now in NYC. He managed a very stable staff of writers there for more than a decade. Now he has the top job in the Washington-based magazine, at least for a while.
Mike and his staff gave me a going away party when I went to Iraq 2009. I brought Army field rations so some of the food could be real Army cuisine.
Since I have known Mike for so long and only in leadership jobs, I was surprised that I told him only today with this new job that he is an HMFIC (Head MF In Charge, the Army generic term for anyone in charge at any level.)
Congratulations Mike--Interim Editor-in-Chief and lifelong HMFIC.
Monday, March 27, 2023
A Visit to the Kurt Vonnegut Museum and Library
In the middle of Indianapolis is a lovely little museum devoted to the life and works of a brilliant and crazy author of more than a dozen novels and a dozen more works of non-fiction, plays and short-story collections: The Kurt Vonnegut Museum and Library.
Among the displays in the museum is a shelf of books with Vonnegut novels published in many, many languages around the globe. With novels set all over the world including a million years in the future (Galapagos), Vonnegut is very much a man from Indiana. He loved Indiana and expressed that love all of his long life.
And this darkly funny man could also include his Indiana roots in messages from a coming Armageddon.
The third floor of the museum is devoted to Vonnegut's most famous work, Slaughterhouse Five.
This strange novel is in part the story of Vonnegut's survival of one of the terrible fire bombings during World War II. He was a prisoner of war in an underground slaughterhouse in Dresden which is how he survived a five-day raid in which 150,000 people died.
Vonnegut was captured in December 1944 during the Battle of the Bulge.
Later in life his face became well-known as one of America's great artists.
For me, Vonnegut is one of the great examples of people who transformed the pain of war into art.
At the end of his life he admired Jesus deeply and openly at the same time he was a noted atheist. He said that being kind was the greatest thing a person could do with their lives.
Contradiction? Life has a lot of contradictions. I am so glad Kurt Vonnegut shared his contradictions with the world.
Friday, March 17, 2023
Big Conspiracy Theories in a Small Town
I was in Myerstown, Pennsylvania, today. A small town north of Lancaster. I wanted coffee and saw there were three coffee shops near the center of town. I went to Café 58 which my son Nigel suggested by looking at Google maps.
Wednesday, March 15, 2023
Sonnets by William Shakespeare
Thou art more lovely and more temperate:
Rough winds do shake the darling buds of May,
And summer’s lease hath all too short a date:
Sometime too hot the eye of heaven shines,
And often is his gold complexion dimmed,
And every fair from fair sometime declines,
By chance, or nature’s changing course untrimmed:
But thy eternal summer shall not fade,
Nor lose possession of that fair thou ow’st,
Nor shall death brag thou wander’st in his shade,
When in eternal lines to time thou grow’st,
So long as men can breathe, or eyes can see,
So long lives this, and this gives life to thee.
When, in disgrace with fortune and men’s eyes,
I all alone beweep my outcast state,
And trouble deaf heaven with my bootless cries,
And look upon myself, and curse my fate,
Wishing me like to one more rich in hope,
Featur’d like him, like him with friends possess’d,
Desiring this man’s art and that man’s scope,
With what I most enjoy contented least;
Yet in these thoughts myself almost despising,
Haply I think on thee, and then my state,
Like to the lark at break of day arising
From sullen earth, sings hymns at heaven’s gate;
For thy sweet love remember’d such wealth brings
That then I scorn to change my state with kings.
Not marble, nor the gilded monuments
Of princes, shall outlive this powerful rhyme;
But you shall shine more bright in these contents
Than unswept stone, besmear’d with sluttish time.
When wasteful war shall statues overturn,
And broils root out the work of masonry,
Nor Mars his sword, nor war’s quick fire shall burn
The living record of your memory.
‘Gainst death, and all oblivious enmity
Shall you pace forth; your praise shall still find room
Even in the eyes of all posterity
That wear this world out to the ending doom.
So, till the judgment that yourself arise,
You live in this, and dwell in lovers’ eyes.
Mine eye hath play’d the painter and hath stell’d
Thy beauty’s form in table of my heart;
My body is the frame wherein ’tis held,
And perspective it is the painter’s art.
For through the painter must you see his skill,
To find where your true image pictured lies;
Which in my bosom’s shop is hanging still,
That hath his windows glazed with thine eyes.
Now see what good turns eyes for eyes have done:
Mine eyes have drawn thy shape, and thine for me
Are windows to my breast, where-through the sun
Delights to peep, to gaze therein on thee;
Yet eyes this cunning want to grace their art;
They draw but what they see, know not the heart.
From fairest creatures we desire increase,
That thereby beauty’s rose might never die,
But as the riper should by time decease,
His tender heir might bear his memory:
But thou contracted to thine own bright eyes,
Feed’st thy light’s flame with self-substantial fuel,
Making a famine where abundance lies,
Thy self thy foe, to thy sweet self too cruel:
Thou that art now the world’s fresh ornament,
And only herald to the gaudy spring,
Within thine own bud buriest thy content,
And, tender churl, mak’st waste in niggarding:
Pity the world, or else this glutton be,
To eat the world’s due, by the grave and thee.
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