In My Time of Dying is the fifth book I have read by Sebastian Junger since I met him almost a year ago. He was the opening keynote speaker at the Hannah Arendt Center Conference in October 2024.
In all of Junger's books and films, death hovers in the background when it is not the main topic. As the title says, this book is about Junger's near/almost death from abdominal bleeding. The cause is complex and rare. He was close enough to death to have the haunting experience of his (dead) father beckoning him into the world beyond this life.
Reading the book, made me look at my own brushes with death differently. I thought before reading this book I had three near-death experiences. Now I think it was one. Two of them, a missile explosion and a 75-mph motorcycle crash, left me badly injured and temporarily unconscious, but I was still (painfully) aware. The 50-mph bicycle crash in which I broke my neck, I have no recollection of and near total memory loss for months.
And each of my brushes with death was a sudden bone-breaking crash or explosion. I have never had brush with death that was from disease or internal organ failure.
Life gone wrong in an instant brought me to death's door, not a slow aching internal failure as was the case with Junger. The book is precise and vivid on the small arteries and ligaments that conspired to nearly kill Junger. It also chronicles current research and experiences of those who are near death or actually dead for a short time and revived.
Shortly after finishing the book, I had elevated heart rate in the night for five days. Two of those days I woke up feeling my heart pounding in my chest. After the second night, I went to the emergency room and then to a cardiologist. It was probably a virus--I had very high rest heart rates when I had covid. I might not have gone to the emergency room, but after reading how Junger put off finding the cause of his abdominal discomfort, I decided to get checked by doctors. Also in my mind was a friend whose rest heart rate raced to more than 150 beats per minute for no apparent reason.
I strongly recommend In My Time of Dying as a story very well told and a cautionary tale if you have any tendency to ignore medical problems.
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Junger's other books, as I noted above, have the life/death theme:
War about a year with several months at the most dangerous forward outpost in Afghanistan. Junger also co-produced the documentary Restrepo about that year in Afghanistan.
Freedom about a long and occasionally danger walk along hundreds of miles of railroad tracks in Pennsylvania.
A Perfect Storm about a fatal shipwreck.
Tribe about, among other things, who we will give our life for.
The next book by Junger I will read is A Death in Belmont about murder in a small town near Boston when I was a child.